STARCROSSED

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BECAUSE SHE WOULD ASK ME WHY I LOVED HER

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if questioning would make us wise,

no eyes would ever gaze in eyes,

if all our tale were told in speech,

no mouth would wander each to each..

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were spirits free from mortal mesh,

and love not bound in hearts of flesh,

no aching breasts would yearn to meet,

and found their ecstacy complete..

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for who is there that lives and knows,

the secret powers by which he grows,

were knowledge all, what were our need,

to thrill and faint and sweetly bleed..

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then seek not, sweetheart, the ‘If’ and ‘Why’,

i love you now until i die,

for i must love because i live,

and life in me is what you give.

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THERE’S NOTHING LEFT TO PROVE,

THERE’S NOTHING I WON’T DO,

THERE’S NOTHING LIKE THE PAIN,

I FEEL FOR YOU.

well… it’s been a while since i write.. not that i have nothing.. actually i do plan to write.. about rossu’s night at music addict 2005, about the QS’s football team run to the final, and put some more of my writings.. but well, it’s the end of the semester, and the works are piling.. its the most work we had in a semester i guess.. phew, i can’t believe i just said that i don’t have time because of work.. now that’s something new.. and something good i guess.. ahaha.. 2-0.. the halftime score between the dutch and the czech before i went here.. van der vaart and opdam scored.. and chelsea, who can stop them?.. even henry is leaving.. uhuhu.. tomorrow we have a family gathering.. aunts and uncles around kl will come to my house for buka puasa.. but i have post-contract meeting at kaed at 2 pm.. and on monday we’re having construction procurement seminar.. fuh.. abe asked if i could help for final submission.. of course i would, just tell me ok?.. mm.. ahaha just blabblering about.. steal some time.. much is happening at this time, and have a lot in my mind.. well.. i guess.. i just missed her a lot.. ahaha, yeah.. i missed her… i missed every sound she make, i missed her asking me about words she didn’t understand.. ahaha…. ……. its been a year.. feels like forever for me.. funny isn’t it, how these things work?.. stupid, absurd, irrational.. call what u like, but still you can’t get away from it.. sometimes you feel like the stupidest person in the world, but still when waiting (and being hopeful) is all you can do, you would still do it.. some say it’s a pity that things like these could not be measured.. but i guess it’s just another of God’s test for us to look out for.. for us to find out, right?.. wish she knew just how much her every word, her every move meant to me… well i guess i better stop before i spend all night writing about the same thing ahahha…

watched this excellent video, FIX YOU by Colplay.. a great song by a great band.. and the lyrics.. just eats me up inside ahaha.. till next time..

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FIX YOU

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse ..
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And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse? ..
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Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you ..

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And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth ..

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Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you ..

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Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I ..

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Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..

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Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

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