raya…?
do you know that if you hurt someone intentionally (make his life miserable), God will not forgive you until you apologized and make good.. and its not even a month yet since raya.. sometimes i wonder what raya means to some people.. what ’selamat hari raya, maaf zahir batin’ mean.. do they really ask for forgiveness, or just playing with someone’s heart?.. because its no point asking for forgiveness if you dont mean it.. just let the person dont forgive you until he dies.. sometimes i wonder why some people are just so hard to satisfy.. everything you do is not up to her standards.. and you would just end up getting hurt by her words and actions.. at first i thought this raya would be good, and it sure did at first, but now its turning to the worst raya ive had.. ive managed to make good my relationships with some friends.. but there is also individuals who are just so.. hurtful.. so hard to satisfy (said that already i guess).. well some people in the world are just cruel and like to hurt other people, but i dont imagine it would be someone who looks to be very nice and polite on the outside.. always talk about islam, always posts bulletins and blogs about islam, hadiths etc.. which also makes me wonder (along with some other people) does she really know what she was posting or just doing it for other people to say good things about her?.. i dont usually posts things like these (the last one is about straylight run i guess ahah) but i still know how to be good to other people……. well.. think i better quit ahaha.. God know how much i apologized, how i tried to mend things over, and God know how much it hurts.. only God know how much it hurts..
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well its been a while since i last wrote.. been busy.. have some projects with my friends (its holiday you can do what you want).. and last week (and the following weeks) i just dont have the best feelings.. before i go just a thought….. me myself, i like words. words could do million things, could invoke million feelings.. but someone reminded me, and i kept reminding myself, that words, are just words, and it is nothing without action.. words, are meaningless at best, when you dont have the conscience and guts to do it for yourslef and for others.
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chow!!
